Thoth & Mistress Peony: Fortitude

March 29, 2003

Fortitude/Root Chakra Transcript

—I call us into Sacred Space.  I ask for the blessings and the guardianship of the Grandmothers and the Grandfathers of the Sacred directions and the Sacred elements.

I ask for the presence of and the wisdom of the creatures of the natural world.  All of Mother Earth’s children.  

And I call on us to experience our gratitude for Mother Earth who we sit upon.  And who feeds us now with energy.  

And the more we bring our consciousness to that the more we can receive.

And I give thanks for the presence of Father Sky.  And the myriad stars of the universe which hold our world in place.

In this Sacred Space I ask that our lives be aligned with the Sacred grid of the universe.  

We each come here from different places in our development.  And yet each of us wishes to make the next step along her path.

And so, in gathering tonight, each woman has brought her willingness to receive support from the Sacred for this process.  

May it be so.  In recognizing that each one of us chooses to walk our path or not.

Into our Sacred Space I invite the healing Spirit guides who attend each one of us to draw near.  

That each of us may have access to our Higher Selves, to our greater and deeper knowing.  

That we learn to show up in a responsible way.  Because only in doing so can we bring our gifts to the world.  

Thank you.—

Good Evening.  

— Good evening.—

Now, those of you who have been present.  Do you recognize my energy?

—Thoth.—

So, there has been much loving process going on, much gentle process.  And this is the way of growth.  

Yet, also I wish to speak with you about other qualities which you will need if you choose to walk a path with Spirit. 

Now, walking the path with Spirit brings you closer to your own essential self.  And so many people who wish to walk a spiritual path, in these days, wish that it should be all sweet and harmonious.  

And indeed, this is valid, and it can be.  

And yet, I come to speak to you about being strong.  

To hold energy takes fortitude.  

And many of you do not really wish to hold energy.  You do not wish really to hold power.  

If you think of it, you think, “Oh, that would be a good idea,” or, “That would be handy.”  

And yet, power in your body, in your being, would transform you so greatly that you have some trepidation regarding this.  So I wish to address it. 

There are forces, as you know, which buffet you around in the world.  Which throw you off of your path.  Which pull you away from the core of your being.  

Now, you know, the core of your being is your gift to the world.  This is what you seek to manifest.  It’s totally unique for each one of you.  

And yet, to manifest it requires far more than sweetness.  

It requires a determination.  It requires a strength.  So that you can build energy, and hold energy within your bodies. 

It is best done with some tone of your muscles.  And paradoxically, it gives you a knowing of your boundaries.   

It makes sense that a strength within your energy field strengthens your boundaries.  And when you have strong boundaries you are able to truly unite with another.  Because you are two individuals. 

So many of the relationships that you have all known your entire lives, on this planet, in this time.  Have taught you about sloppy boundaries.  You’ve been raised with them.  

Is this not so?

—It is.—

So, you cannot really, in a sense, know another, because you do not know if you’re responding to something within yourself, or something within them. 

The paradox lies in that the greater you are yourself, and understand your boundaries, and feel your boundaries.  The greater then you will be able to see another, and recognize another.  

It requires that you hold yourself within yourself.  

And you have been trained to give your energy away.  Yes?

—Yes.—

So you see, you have a challenge here.  And your challenge will bring you self expression of your Self.   

You have not been trained to hold power like this.  

And so once again, we decide to bring you a message, a challenge.  Just so you know this is before you.  

And it is not something which will make some people love you.  Because they would really want to use you, and call it love.  Does this sound familiar?

—Yes.—

So, strength, strength.  

Alright, so, I do not wish to frighten you.

I wish to invite you to receive the quality which is in my energy field.  

And do not worry that you need to understand this fully.  

Simply, in your own self, state to yourself quietly or silently, your willingness to taste what I’m bringing you.  And let it grow should you wish it to.  

Just let your field receive the energy that I have brought to the circle. 

You do not need to understand it.  You do not need to hold onto it.  

Your Higher Self can taste differences in energy.  And will remember that which when you wish to call upon it, your energy field has this memory.

So, you are still fully in command of your destiny. 

What is strength like?  What does it feel like in your cells?  Will you choose to see clearly that you may be strengthened?  

Will you choose to lose some of the soft but inaccurate perceptions which you feel may be part of your identity?  

Will you choose instead to see truth? 

These are challenges.  I recognize that these are challenges.  But remember, we never bring you challenges that don’t reward you, never. 

If you choose to walk a path with Spirit as support.  You will be challenged to release the aspects of yourself which are not true.  

Seeing yourself as ineffective, as small, as weak, as unsure and foggy.  Those things you will have to release.  

And in their place will come clarity of your Self, no one else. 

Does anyone have a question for me at this time? 

—Do you have some suggestions for us in terms of practices that we can do?  I mean the first thing one normally thinks of in building strength is physically, but perhaps emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well.— 

Very appropriate question.  Physically, always play physically.  Everything you do physically is beneficial.  

Otherwise, in terms of your consciousness, in relating to another.  Have an observing being that stands back within yourself.  Yourself observing and saying, “What is me?  What is that person?” 

You can play with your energy body.  Feel the boundaries of your energy field.  Bring them more tightly around yourself.  Till you feel them.  Expand them out from yourself, your energy field, your auric field. 

Consciously taste someone else’s energy field.  Be respectful.  You might perhaps communicate with their Higher Self asking acceptability.  

Or simply taste in a respectful way.  So that you can see.  What is their quality?  What is your quality? 

Many of you who are sensitive take in others without knowing it.  Yes?

—Yes.—

Many of you have worked with this a great deal.  So you have an inclination to tasting people.  

You have an inclination to healing them.  Even though they’ve not asked you.  Even though they don’t appreciate it.  Even though they will use you until you perish. 

Be conscious of when you give.  Choose to give.  

Do not give because it is unconscious habit.  This alone will be a big challenge, very large challenge.  And please, don’t fault yourself for your failures.  

Congratulate yourself for seeing them. 

I come because it is easy to say, “I wish to walk my spiritual path.”  

And yet, these times of human history are very intense.  

You can be more powerful than you ever have dreamed.  And yet, this is the path.  Honesty.  Consciousness.  

Honesty with the Self.  Learning skills.  Distinction.  “Who is me?  Who is them?  Shall I give now?  How shall I give?  

How is my body feeling when I am with this other?  Is it good for me?  Is it not good for me?  

How do I protect myself in their presence?  Or how do I leave their presence?” 

I come to urge you to embrace your path.  For you each have something to give.  

Take advantage of the opportunities for teaching that come to you.  And choose your teachers wisely.  

And then embark.  Make a commitment to yourself. 

The energies now of new beginnings become strong with springtime, initiation, rebirth, the new moon.  

So take advantage of the crest of this wave.  To define for yourself what you wish of your life.  

And know that should you choose the Spirit path you will be embraced upon your way.  Even though I am harsh father at this moment.

Feel the shift in my energy field now.  And you will know that you will be loved upon your way. 

Ask for what you need.  Ask with responsibility.  It’s your responsibility to formulate the questions.  

It’s your responsibility to develop some clarity about your questions.  To make a mature statement about what you need or wish for. 

Listen to the tone of your voice.  Do you speak as a child?  

Can you pull up in yourself greater maturity?  Then ask.  With that voice that contains your deeper self, your Higher Self?  And you will be answered. 

Is there any more question for me?

—Yes, I have a question.—

What is it?

—A group of children known as the psychic children have expressed that the United States and Iraq have a spiritual contract of some sort.  Can you give us any information about that?—

Hmm, they appear to be polarities.  It is like a slight of hand.  For they are not polarities.  They are dancing a shadow play.  Appearing to be enemies.  And yet they are mirroring each other’s darknesses.

And they do this to bring to consciousness others.  Because what is truly distinct from them is another way of being which you have all given great thought to.

So, do not be fooled by the manipulation of the stories which they each tell.  Their stories sound absurd to the stories of the people of this country, and vice versa. 

So know that the true alternative is what you are already talking about.  

To rise up in love and in strength.  Loving strength.  Powerful love.  We are asking a great deal of maturity of you.  Powerful love.  Stand in your love strongly.

So, their contract is to change the consciousness of humankind.  And they’re doing this.  You think so?

—Yes, I think so.—

Good, I’m glad we are in agreement.

Alright, I have provided my lecture for this night.  

I leave you with my blessing that you find joy in your strengthening process.  

That you find benefit in the emergence of your true self as held in sanctity by your own energy field.  

Then you will be powerful. 

I place this upon your paths should you choose it.  And you can choose it one moment and not another, and choose it again then.  

And each time you choose it.  It will be there for you.  

You create yourself moment by moment.  And I give you my blessing in this process.  

Good night. 

—Thank you.—

Well, Good Evening.  

—Good evening Mistress Peony.—

So, I’m coming to you to soften up the energy now.  

And Master Thoth’s teachings are full of wisdom.  And the power which he speaks of will help you.  

And, of course, do not make the mistake to equate the masculine with powerful and the feminine with lack of it. 

We take different textures to our qualities.  And each of you will gain from both.  And each of you must have both within you.  It is not either - or.  It is both - and.  

Because sometimes each of you will calibrate your energy fields to the degree of softness you wish to carry.  And the softness yet can still have the strength of those boundaries.

And yet, he exemplifies it in a way which makes it very clear.  

Did you find it so?

—Yes.—

Very powerful.  And there may be times when that in your energy field will save you from a painful experience.  

Or that quality in your energy field will enable you to overcome some of your own softness towards yourself.  Where it does not help you. 

And yet, you will each calibrate according to what is comfortable for you.  

You know already which of us is most comfortable for you.  Resonates for you more comfortably.  And this is valid as well.  

And in your softness you can still find boundaries.  So let’s do that now.

In this softer field we are more open to tasting the other.  

And yet, my consciousness can draw a firm boundary between myself and another.  I do not need to carry armor to do so, to keep me from doing so.  

My shell is very permeable.  My musculature more soft.  Yet energetically I can create a boundary.  To not let in someone’s energy which will be detrimental to me.  

This is a requirement for healthy living on this life.  As well as for developing skills and abilities.

Now, does anyone have a question for me this night?  It is alright to ask something personal.

—Mistress Peony?—

Yes.

—Can you speak about the relationship between the root chakra and the throat chakra?—

Well, your root chakra is the powerhouse for everything.  So the more that your root chakra is dancing, happy, fired, full.  Then the more your whole system flows.  

And the more you will have consciousness of the issues which are happening in your body.

Then this increases your ability to say those things.  To speak to those things.  To say, “I feel” or “I wonder.”  

And then your throat chakra opens because it’s connected and fed.  It’s connected to the whole of the energy field.  And it is empowered.  It is fed.

So, it’s a question of juice in the field to run on.  Energy in the energy field to run on.  

And then your throat chakra will be able to expel what might be blocking it.  Be able to bring clarity to your inner experience and truth.

And this then will feed the chakras above it.  And they will increase in their clarity.  

But their purpose will be grounded and united with the deepest, most personal aspects of the self.  And then we are talking about being a more powerful person.

We know that you are all working on the disparity between your higher consciousness chakras and your deeper, more personal places.  Where you are seeking to bring healing.  

Where you are seeking to manifest this Sacred energy from deeper in your body.

And this will give you a joyful life.  A passionate life.  And the passion may be quiet, may be subtle.  May be a soft passion.  But still a passion to love what you love.

Does this answer your question?

—Yes, and now I have another one.—

Yes.

—I feel as though I have such a habit or a pattern in this life of blocking energy in my lower chakras.  How might I work on feeding my root.  And receiving more fire and strength there?—

Well, easiest is to walk, as you know.  Walk with consciousness.  Walk and breathe at the same time.  

Develop a pattern in your breathing with your steps.  So that you are involving your whole body in your vitalization.  

And welcome this energy into your chakra.

You can also do some meditation to visit the chakra.  And ask it how it is now.  

Ask it what its hesitancy is to burn brightly.  Ask it what healing it would like you to create for it.  

And honor it.  Honor it.  And honor its reasons for not being strong.  Honor its history.  

And bring love and respect to this chakra.  And then it will naturally burn more brightly.  

And then notice any changes.  So that you can keep on developing it.  

If you bring your attention to it.  It responds like any chakra.  Like any quality that you wish to develop.  

Bring your consciousness to it.  And then invite the change.  And bring your consciousness to it again.

Perhaps every time you see the color red.  Now this will be an amusing challenge for you.  

And I would suggest it for everyone.

When you see red.  Then thank your first chakra for its burning, for its fire.   Anytime you see red.  Especially if you think it’s a beautiful red.

Say, “Here’s a gift for you from me.  I’m drinking this color with my eyes.  It’s for you.”

And you can play with this with all of your chakras.  Anyone that you want to become more familiar with.  Or want to make it stronger.  

Look at the world around you.  See the colors.  And receive them.

This is amusing, and it is good for you to be playful.  And to be playful is good for your first chakra too.  

To be playful.  To enjoy the world.  To feel your senses.  All this relates to the first chakra.  

To feel your will to survive.  To affirm your very survival is an honoring of the first chakra.  

Enjoy your body.  Appreciate your body.

Is this sufficient?

—Yes, thank you.—

Does someone else have any question?

—I do.—

Yes.

—I’ve been on the practical level of living on this Earth.  I’ve thought that I need to find a home to buy.  And be able to have that space to create for myself for the first time in my life.  And I seem to be very stuck in not finding one.  

And I’m very frustrated with the process.  And I wonder if I’m not looking for the right thing?  Or if what I need is a different way of making a home for myself besides buying a house?  I’m just wondering what insight you might have?—

Alright, yes.  First is to relinquish the struggle.  Second is to surrender in your body, through breath, through quiet.  Quieting the mind and emotions.

And say, “I draw to me my heart’s desire for a home.  I draw to me, and I will know it when I see it.”

And then you can continue your looking without intensity.  So do it following your intuition more.  Do it as a soft process.  Do it as a playful looking for a beloved which will nurture you.

You are looking for a place on the Earth.  Not only a structure.  

Does this make sense to you?

—Yes.—

The right place awaits your guidance by your heart.  

Does this make sense to you?

—Yes, I know, I just once I’m in that struggle.—

Yes

—It’s very hard to let go of.  I guess there’s a frustration associated with the struggle.—

Yes.

—I realize that I need to let go of that.—

Yes.  And you can learn to do this.  So receive.  Do not be alone in your process.

Everyone does this same thing to some degree or another.

When you get into the places of yourself where there’s an entropy.  Yes?  Where it is very difficult for you to generate enough energy to move yourself past this.  Past where you are.  

That is the most difficult and crucial time to say to yourself, “Wait a minute.  I don’t wish to be here.  Who can I call upon to help me not be here?”

You see.  It is a habit to be with this aloneness.  And then once you recognize this pattern.  Then you can break this aloneness.  You can break that pattern.  

And your process will go more smoothly, more quickly.  

So receive some help.  Receive some healing work.  Some friendship moments.  Some times of laughter to shift your energy field.  

Don’t be alone perhaps when you are the most inclined to not be able to struggle on your own behalf.  Recognize those moments, and then don’t.  

Don’t struggle alone.  You’re not meant to.  Does this make sense to you?

—Yes, thank you.—

Any other questions?

—Yes, I have a question.—

Yes.

—My father who is quite a paradox to me.  He does nothing to promote his health, as if he really didn’t want to live anymore.  But then when death actually comes to him.  He becomes very frightened and fights back.  

Is there anything to help ease his choices?  And to help him decide which way he wants to go?—

You can go into your own self and find a state of balance.  Find a state of alignment with the Sacred.  

Find a state of truth.  Feeling your own truth.  Within your body at that moment.  

And connect with his Higher Self.  And say, “I wish the best for you.  I wish for your healing.  I wish for your strengthening.  I wish that you gain clarity on these issues of life and death, and sorrow and acceptance.  May his path lay before him so that he can take it.”

And then you must release attention to outcome.  It is in the final moments of life of the person has such control.  And can be affected only if they receive the positive intentions of another.

This is a good reason for you to learn to receive now.  Practice now.

Because in the time of fear of death, it’s a little late to start.  

Some people still do it though.  Some people achieve it very well.  But most struggle a great deal.

You must separate from him.  You must separate your outcomes.  You are not the same person.

Now, I feel it’s a night now to embrace the darkness of the night.  And the quiet of sleep and rest.  

And so, to the degree which you can receive now.  Stretch that boundary.  

The energy in the circle is very calm and gentle.  It is not full of challenge.  

And yet it is full of a sweet love, like a fragrance of a jasmine.  Subtle.  Delicate.  But very present.

My dears, take this into your bodies.  Let your chakras bring it into your system.  

Let your lives be sweet.  

Let your next days unfold with a new dimension of sweetness.  Gentle sweetness.  

Consciousness about boundary.  Feelings of new strength inside, at the same time that you hold a relaxation.  In a sense, a softness.  

And should you need greater boundaries.  You have had this example tonight too.

So, may your taste of power and sweetness go with you.  May it seep into your sleeping consciousness.  

May you cultivate surrender to that which blesses you.  

Go now in peace.  Goodnight.