Thoth & Mistress Peony: Fortitude

March 29, 2003

Fortitude/Root Chakra Transcript

—I call us into Sacred Space.  I ask for the blessings and the guardianship of the Grandmothers and the Grandfathers of the Sacred directions and the Sacred elements.

I ask for the presence of and the wisdom of the creatures of the natural world.  All of Mother Earth’s children.  And I call on us to experience our gratitude for Mother Earth who we sit upon.  And who feeds us now with energy.  And the more we bring our consciousness to that the more we can receive.

And I give thanks for the presence of Father Sky, and the myriad stars of the universe which hold our world in place.

In this Sacred Space I ask that our lives be aligned with the Sacred thread of the universe.  We each come here from different places in our development.  And yet each of us wishes to make the next step along her path.

And so, in gathering tonight each woman has brought her willingness to receive support from the Sacred for this process.  May it be so in recognizing that each one of us chooses to walk our path or not.

Into our Sacred Space I invite the healing Spirit guides who attend each one of us to draw near.  That each of us may have access to our Higher Selves, to our greater and deeper knowing.  That we learn to show up in a responsible way.  Because only in doing so can we bring our gifts to the world.  Thank you.—

Good Evening.  There has been much loving process going on in this studio in this week’s time, much gentle process, and this is the way of growth.  Yet, I also wish to speak with you about other qualities which you will need if you choose to walk a path with Spirit. 

Now, walking the path with Spirit brings you closer to your own essential self.  And so many people who wish to walk a spiritual path, in these days, wish that it should be all sweet and harmonious.  And indeed, this is valid, and it can be.  

And yet, I come to speak to you for various reasons this night, because of who is here, and because of the places that you each are in your growth, even though it is quite varied, about being strong. 

To hold energy takes fortitude.  And many of you do not really wish to hold energy.  You do not wish really to hold power.  If you think of it, you think, “Oh, that would be a good idea,” or, “That would be handy.”  

And yet, power in your body, in your being, would transform you so greatly that you have some trepidation regarding this.  So I wish to address it. 

There are forces, as you know, which buffet you around in the world, which throw you off your path, which pull you away from the core of your being.  

Now, you know, the core of your being is your gift to the world.  This is what you seek to manifest.  It’s totally unique for each one of you.  

And yet, to manifest it requires far more than sweetness.  It requires a determination.  It requires a strength.  So that you can build energy, and hold energy within your bodies. 

It is best done with some tone of your muscles.  And paradoxically, it gives you a knowing of your boundaries.  I will explain the paradox of it in a moment.  

It makes sense that a strength within your energy field strengthens your boundaries.  And when you have strong boundaries you are able to truly unite with another because you are two individuals. 

So many of the relationships that you have all known your entire lives, on this planet, in this time, have taught you about sloppy boundaries.  You’ve been raised with them.  

So, you cannot really, in a sense, know another, because you do not know if you’re responding to something within yourself, or something within them. 

The paradox lies in that the greater you are yourself, and understand your boundaries, and feel your boundaries, the greater that you will be able to see another and recognize another.  

It requires that you hold yourself within yourself.  And you have been trained to give your energy away.  So you see, you have a challenge here.  And your challenge will bring you self expression of your Self. 

You have not been trained to hold power like this.  And so once again, we decide to bring you a message, a challenge, just so you know this is before you.  

And it is not something which will make some people love you, because they would really want to use you and call it love.  So, strength, strength. 

I wish to invite you to receive the quality which is in my energy field.  And do not worry that you need to understand this fully.  Simply, in your own self, state to yourself quietly or silently your willingness to taste what I’m bringing you.  

And let it grow should you wish it to.  To whatever extent you can.  Just let your field receive the energy that I have brought. 

You do not need to understand it.  You do not need to hold onto it.  Your Higher Self can taste differences in energy.  So, you are still fully in command of your destiny. 

What is strength like?  What does it feel like in your cells?  Will you choose to see clearly that you may be strengthened?  

Will you choose to lose some of the soft but inaccurate perceptions which you feel may be part of your identity?  

Will you choose instead to see truth? 

These are challenges.  I recognize that these are challenges.  But remember, we never bring you challenges that don’t reward you, never. 

If you choose to walk a path with Spirit as support, you will be challenged to release the aspects of yourself which are not true.  Seeing yourself as ineffective, as small, as weak, as unsure and foggy.  Those things you will have to release.  

And in their place will come clarity of yourself, no one else. 

Does anyone have a question for me at this time? 

—Do you have some suggestions for us in terms of practices we can do?  The first thing one normally thinks of in building strength is physically, but perhaps emotionally, mentally and spiritually as well.— 

Very appropriate question.  Physically, always play physically.  Everything you do physically is beneficial.  

Otherwise, in terms of your consciousness in relating to another, have an observing being which stands back within yourself observing and saying, “What is me?  What is that person?” 

You can play with your energy body.  Feel the boundaries of your energy field.  Bring them more tightly around yourself till you feel them.  Expand them out from yourself, your energy field, your auric field. 

Consciously taste someone else’s energy field.  Be respectful.  You might perhaps communicate with their Higher Self.  Or simply tasting in a respectful way.  So you can see.  What is their quality?  What is your quality? 

Many of you who are sensitive take in others without knowing it.  Many of you have worked with this a great deal.  So you have an inclination to tasting people.  

You have an inclination to healing them even though they’ve not asked you.  Even though they don’t appreciate it.  Even though they will use you until you perish. 

Be conscious of when you give.  Choose to give.  Do not give because it is an unconscious habit.  This alone will be a very large challenge.  

And please, don’t fault yourself for your failures.  Congratulate yourself for seeing them. 

I come because it is easy to say, “I wish to walk my spiritual path.”  And yet, these times of human history are very intense.  You can be more powerful than you ever have dreamed, and yet, this is the path.  Honesty.  Consciousness.  

Honesty with the Self.  Learning skills.  Distinction.  “Who is me?  Who is them?  Shall I give now?  How shall I give?  

How is my body feeling when I am with this other?  Is it good for me?  Is it not good for me?  

How do I protect myself in their presence?  Or how do I leave their presence?” 

I come to urge you to embrace your path, for you each have something to give.  Take advantage of the opportunities for teaching that come to you.  And choose your teachers wisely.  

And then embark.  Make a commitment to yourself. 

The energies now of new beginnings become strong with springtime, initiation, rebirth, new moon.  So take advantage of the crest of this wave to define for yourself what you wish of your life.  

And know that should you choose the Spirit path you will be embraced on your way.  And you know that you will be loved upon your way. 

Ask for what you need.  Ask with responsibility.  It’s your responsibility to formulate the questions.  

It’s your responsibility to develop some clarity about your questions, to make a mature statement about what you need or wish for. 

Listen to the tone of your voice.  Do you speak as a child?  Can you pull up in yourself greater maturity, then ask with that voice that contains your deeper self, your Higher Self?  

And you will be answered. 

All right, I have provided my lecture for this night.  

I leave you with my blessing that you find joy in your strengthening process, that you find benefit in the emergence of your true self as held in sanctity by your own energy field.  Then you will be powerful. 

I place this upon your paths should you choose it.  And you can choose it one moment and not another, and choose it again then.  

And each time you choose it, it will be there for you.  You create yourself moment by moment, and I give you my blessing in this process.  Good night. 

Good Evening.  Master Thoth’s teachings are full of wisdom, and the power which he speaks of will help you.  And, of course, do not make the mistake to equate the masculine with powerful and the feminine with lack of it. 

We take different textures to our qualities, and each of you will gain from both, and each of you must have both within you.  It is not either - or.  It is both - and.  

Because sometimes each of you will calibrate your energy fields to the degree of softness you wish to carry, and the softness yet can still have the strength of those boundaries.

And yet, he exemplifies it in a way which makes it very clear, very powerful.  And there may be times when that in your energy field will save you from a painful experience.  

Or that quality in your energy field will enable you to overcome some of your own softness towards yourself where it does not help you. 

And yet, you will each calibrate according to what is comfortable for you.  You already know which of us is most comfortable for you, resonates for you more comfortably, and this is valid as well.  And in your softness you can still find boundaries.

In this softer field we are more open to tasting the other.  And yet, my consciousness can draw a firm boundary between myself and another.  I do not need to carry armor to do so, to keep me from doing so.  

My shell is very permeable.  My musculature more soft.  And yet, energetically I can create a boundary to not let in someone’s energy who would be detrimental to me.  

This is a requirement for healthy living in this life, as well as for developing skills and abilities.

Now, does anyone have a question for me this night?

—Mistress Peony, can you speak about the relationship between the root chakra and the throat chakra?—

Well, your root chakra is the powerhouse for everything.  So the more that your root chakra is dancing, happy, fiery, full, then the more your whole system flows.  And the more you will have consciousness of the issues which are happening in your body.

This increases your ability to say those things, to speak those things.  To say, “I feel” or “I wonder.”  And then your throat chakra opens because it is connected and fed.  It is connected to the whole of the energy field.  And it is empowered.  It is fed.

So, it’s a question of juice in the field to run on.  Energy in the energy field to run on.  And then your throat chakra will be able to expel what might be blocking it.  Be able to bring clarity to your inner experience and truth.

And this will feed the chakras above it.  And they will increase in their clarity.  Their purpose will be grounded and united with the deepest, most personal aspects of the self.  And then we are talking about being a more powerful person.

We know that you are all, and some of you are consciously working on the disparity between your higher consciousness chakras and your deeper, more personal places where you are seeking to bring healing.  Where you are seeking to manifest this Sacred energy from deeper within your body.

And this will give you a joyful life, a passionate life.  And the passion may be quiet, may be subtle.  It may be a soft passion, but still a passion to love what you love.

—How might I work on feeding my root, and receiving more fire and strength there?—

Well, easiest is to walk.  Walk with consciousness and breathe at the same time.  Develop a pattern in your breathing with your steps, so that you are involving your whole body in your vitalization.  And welcome this energy into your chakra.

You can also do some meditation to visit the chakra.  And ask how it is.  Ask it what its hesitancy is to burn brightly.  Ask it what healing it would like for you to create for it.  

And honor it.  Honor it.  And honor its reasons for not being strong.  Honor its history.  And bring love and respect to this chakra.

And then it will naturally burn more brightly.  And then notice any changes, so that you can keep on developing it.  If you bring your attention to it, it responds like any chakra, like any quality which you wish to develop.  

Bring your consciousness to it, and then invite the change.  And then bring your consciousness to it again.

And perhaps every time you see the color red, then thank your first chakra for its burning, for its fire.  Anytime you see red, especially if you think it’s a beautiful red, you say, “Here’s a gift for you from me.  I’m drinking this color with my eyes.  It’s for you.”

And you can play with this with all of your chakras.  Any one that you want to become more familiar with, or any one that you want to make stronger.  Look at the world about you, and see the colors, and receive them.

Now, this is amusing, and it is good for you to be playful.  And to be playful is good for your first chakra too.  To be playful, and to enjoy the world, to feed your senses.  All this relates to the first chakra.  

To feel your will to survive, to affirm your very survival is an honoring of the first chakra.  Enjoy your body.  Appreciate your body.

Now, to embrace the darkness of the night, and the quiet of sleep and rest.  And so, to the degree which you can receive now, stretch that boundary.  

The energy is very calm and gentle.  It is not full of challenge.  And yet it is full of sweet love like the fragrance of a jasmine, subtly, delicate, but very present.

My dears, take this into your bodies.  Let your chakras bring it into your system.  Let your lives be sweet.  

Let your next days unfold with a new dimension of sweetness, gentle sweetness, consciousness about boundaries.  Feelings of new strength inside, at the same time you hold a relaxation and a sense of softness.  

And should you need greater boundaries, you have had this example tonight too.

So, may your taste of power and sweetness go with you.  May it seep into your sleeping consciousness.  May you cultivate surrender to that which blesses you.  

Go now in peace.  Goodnight.