Thoth & Mistress Peony: Core Strengthening

September 21st, 2002

Core Strengthening Transcript

Good evening.  

—Good evening.—

I am Thoth.  And of course needed to come before you this evening, so kindly and sweetly invited.  

Now, the questions which you have placed in this circle, the questions which are full of confusion, are in accordance with the times which you are in.

There are the falling apart, the tearing asunder of patterns which estrange human beings from one another, and from the Earth upon which you live.  

Your culture has developed, and it is a dominant culture in many visible respects.  Not in other respects of the world.  And other peoples have not aligned themselves with the dominant culture.  

And they have been powerless once.  And they have gone about holding onto their own beliefs about the nature of reality, and the nature of the universe.  And they are more guided by Spirit.

Not to imply that they are perfect, and you are not.  But more to illustrate that you are not alone.  That there is some great degree of human grass roots.  It’s not, organization is the wrong word, because it is more based on energetic position.  

And the more dominant this energy is in this world.  Then the more ease there will be in this transition.

Because the world which you seek.  Which those of you who choose to gather here.  Those who choose to explore their healing process.  Those who wish to live in a world where there is more love.  

You are not alone.  But you are not connected in a tangible way as yet to these other people.  Who have held the belief and the promise of a deeper knowing.

Now, the forces which are ascending.  We call the patriarchy by some.  And it is involving also the celestial bodies.  And some dominance therein in the celestial bodies.  

And this is an era which is coming to an end.  And the process is painful and even dangerous.

However, more of you are being called to the work of the Soul.  And the guidance by Spirit.  

That you will be in place when more people turn around and say, “There needs to be something better in my life.  There needs to be something truer.  What can it be?”

And many of you are doing your own clearing.  Doing your spiritual practices.  And developing tangible networks between you to sustain yourselves.  

So you will then be able to be of use, and be of help to others as they begin to wake up to the  deeper nature of truth.  And the deeper, sweeter potential of existence.

And we have said before that the force of, the patriarchy is a small word for what the force behind it is, or influencing it is.  

And a number of you have had very personal experiences with darkness, and with the potential depth of darkness.  

And your bright smiles are a testament to your Sacred light, and the power of the Sacred light.

So we have said this before.  But we will continue to teach the same thing, because it will make more and more sense to you as you see events unfolding.  

And as you see that as you carry your light more clearly.  And you dare to drop your sorrows.  You dare to drop your self-doubts.  Then you will see that the impact of your light may be subtle to many.  

But it will grow.  And more and more people will see the subtleness of your light.  And will come to it for nurturance, for information, for hope.

Now, do you have questions for me about what I have said, or about the nature of this battle, this cataclysmic opportunity?

— Thoth—

Yes.

—I would ask about energy.  Is there a fundamental, you mentioned the grass roots.  Is there a fundamental energy where we all come together?  Is that a possible thing?—

What do you mean by come together? 

—Is there some energy level on which we all exist?  We have very different spiritual approaches.  Different practices throughout the world.  

But is there some thing like a base note or chord where we all are?  And from there we might diverge.— 

Absolutely.  And in the core of your being is the Sacred.  And this is the same Sacred that is in the core of each life.  That is in the core of all beings. 

And we know that some people have turned their full selves away from this core.  And those people may not be salvageable.  

But in terms of general, more general human beings, the commonness is there. 

And the more that that core is strong, the more you will recognize one another.  

You may be of different faiths, you may be of different beliefs, but the core, the strength of the core will be increasingly visible, person to person, heart to heart. 

If you go now to a country in the latin, southern hemisphere of this continent.  You could walk into a village if you have a way to introduce yourself to the people.  

And those of you with your sweet hearts will be recognized quite readily by those people who are living more in accordance with the quality of their heart. 

Does this come to your question?

—Yes, thank you.—

Let me see.  

Yes, and people’s perceptual skills, all of your perceptual skills.  It is available to you for them to grow.  

So that you can become sensing others with more full intelligence of your whole self.   So, that it’s beyond your mind assessing someone.  

It’s beyond even your intuition.  Your intuition rolls in, and your sense of being able to more consciously read someone’s aura.  

Not with consciousness, but with knowing, and feeling content with your knowing.  Becoming surer with your knowing. 

And then also the openness of your own heart.  To see this person in front of you, and open.  And receive them with an open heart.  

And thereby you pass on the tribe of the open hearted.  You may toy with this as your tribal name. 

Another question?

—Thoth, last fall after everything happened.  We talked a lot about the shadow.  The shadow that is coming up.  And the shadow that’s revealing itself.  

We’re saying patriotic, but it seems like it was a bigger shadow as well.  And I guess my question is it feels like the shadow is really up and exposed, and showing up in different places, you know, around the world.  

And I guess I’m kinda wondering, you know, is it going to get a lot darker?  Because it feels pretty dark now.— 

It will.  It is not resolved.  It is in spasm.  And it has not given up yet.  And in its death throws it will assert its will strongly.  

And great changes will occur. 

And those of you, one topic you have spoken of is going through changes.  Is not being able to control what happens to you.  

And look how used to controlling you are.  Look at that expectation. 

And so, partly what this is is the pulling away of things from you.  

Clarifying who you are without certain things, without certain people, without certain expectations of yourself.  And then, who are you? 

You are being stripped down to your more essential selves.  So that you can live more lightly.  More clearly yourself.  

And also, you have this practice in gracefully receiving being out of control.  Because you will have more opportunities to learn that. 

So the more quickly you embrace it.  Perhaps the easier things will be for you.  

And each of you can be teachers to others.  And this is simply a truth which we encourage you to accept. 

So, any further questions?  And was this full enough for you?  Does this answer enough? 

—Just one more little piece.—

Yes.

—I guess have the things been exposed that we’re facing.  Are there more big surprises?— 

Well, there will be occurrences which you will not anticipate.  Perhaps more examples of an emergence of pestilence.  

Is that a word with meaning?

—Yes.—

So there will be eruptions like this.  

And you will become better and better at seeing them for what they are.  And not getting yourself drawn in.  So that you are not so upset by what you hear.  

You can say, “Ah, that is an eruption of putrid energy.”  And then don’t feel that energy is weighing on you.  Or can define your life.  No.  

It wants to.  It seeks to. 

So, you will become better at managing the opposition which comes.  So that you are not so influenced by it.  

It takes a great deal of faith.  

And each time you return to love in your heart.   Each time you value connection between yourself and the world, yourself and another.  This is faith building.  

And you can work on your faith building with everyday that you live, because then you will be strong.  And your strength will bear fruit. 

—Thank you.—

Any other?

—In my experiences with darkness, in the last few years of my healing process.  I found that the more focus I put on the little joyful things.  And expanding in that.  

Rather than spending my energy so wrapped up in the sorrow.  The farther I came out of the depths of that energy.  That really dark energy that I grew up with.          

And I wonder if at this time, if we could focus more on anything that brings joy or beauty to us.  If that wouldn’t help bring a consciousness available to other. 

That would lighten up the woes of this heavy soap opera?  And you become that energy, and that just exacerbates it.         

And I’m wondering if we work towards that whatever joyful or beauty.  And again bring that out.  And focus on that and energizing that.  That could be of impact at this time?— 

You have been extraordinarily courageous.  You have faced darkness in the most personal aspects of your life on this plane.  And your courage has been magnificent.  So continue. 

Now, in case you may be visited yet further this evening.  I wish to give you my blessing.  

I connect to the solar constellations.  The celestial realm of the planets in the universe.  And I draw from them into this circle to be received by each one of you.  To the degree which you are willing and currently able.  Strength.  

I draw this energy into the circle which surrounds you, the Sacred Space, like a womb.  

And it is for you to absorb that strength into your bodies.  In the place you most see appropriate.  

Do not spend time in questioning.  Let your body tell you.  

You may feel it like a solidity, a warmth.  It may enter your body in one place.  And move to others.

We invite you to have expectations of yourself which are of significance.  

Not related to identity ego.  Something much more subtle and profound.  

Allow this strength to permeate your body and your auric field.  

And if you find places which feel too small for it.  Embrace this spot and invite healing.  And allow it to receive this strength whenever it is ready.

And may this continue to settle into you in your sleep this night.  Laying beneath the stars.  And knowing that you are connected with kindred energies from very far away.  

Be strengthened.  And may this bring you purpose. 

 And yet, may your paths be one of pleasant surprises.  

Goodnight.

Good Evening.  

—Good evening.—

I am shifting the energies quite quite a bit.  

Now, I believe you have addressed some very important questions.  And I wonder if there are any of you which have, who have questions which are of a more personal nature?  

Which you would like also some input, and some discussion?

—Mistress Peony.—

Yes.

—I’m curious about this energy in my solar plexus?  Do you have any insight, things to share?—

Yes, let me let me ponder.  Well, my dear, it looks like an Earth hairball.  You have cats?

—Yes, I do.—

They, you know this, the nature of this then.  It’s taking things which are old.  Taking things which must be shed.  But holding them for others until they form a mass.

In other words, in your field there were little hairs.  Yes?

—Yes.—

And so, now they now have coalesced because of the work that you have done.  So that you can open your third chakra.  And release.

Some of it is many years of cleaning and clearing.  

And you have worked on behalf of so many people.  And now it is time for your own body to be lighter.  

It is time for you to shed this which you have carried, and you have carried for others.  And, you have cleaned.  

Allow this release, and allow it to continue this night.  And for as many days as is needed.  

And know that you abandon no one with this release.  And know that your commitment as a healer is established and renowned.  

And the strengthening and purification of yourself, which you have been so gently achieving, is of importance.  First to yourself, and then to many others.  

Good for you now?

—Yes, thank you.—

You’re welcome.  Someone else?

—Can you help me understand why this friend has so suddenly pulled away from me?  And what the deeper teachings are?  What I am to learn from it?—

Yes.  Well, some of what is between you - it’s not clean.  It’s a complex relationship.  And therefore what she has to tell you has some truth in it.  

And yet it has also some of her own issues in it.  So, to look for this as a clear mirror.  It will not be.  

So, it would be more helpful to you to look in a mirror yourself.  And open your perceptive skills to receiving that which yourself to be cleared of.  

You’re therefore guiding this process for yourself.

This friend as a mirror is not clear enough, for her to give clear sense for you.  

Yet there is a learning here which is appropriate for you to uncover.  And it may have to do with how you guide yourself.  

What is predominant in your nature which guides you.  And defends you.  And yet which holds you locked into some patterns of emotion and perception.  

Existence of your softer, deeper core which wishes to emerge now.  And is held in place.

So, you are in a time of breaking down qualities which have served you.  And which will still serve you.  

But they will have a different point of power within you.  Shall you choose this transformation.

And your soft and gleeful, childlike, very sweet aspects are seeking to live more in your daily existence.  

And when you are struggling with this.  You may feel this in your sleep, the struggle some.  And continue to surrender to your deeper process.

And if my words don’t hold you so truly.  Then know that you are breaking down a different facade, which was truly to your character.  

But which impedes you and limits you at this time in your life.  And for your future blossoming.

Does this make some sense to you?

—Yes.—

Is there another question you have still?

—Any practical insights on how to embrace being out of control?— 

The culture now, the predominant culture is geared towards controlling.  It’s oriented to controlling.  

And so it’s not only within you.  But you are trained to try to exert this.  

And there is great fear in not being deeply and lovingly connected to the world around you, and so the control is the more necessary.  But this is an illusion. 

So, I would say to bring consciousness to your small moments of control and lack of control.  And play with this.  And make jokes with yourself about this.  

And say, “Ah, here I’m not in control again.” 

And then see if there is greater lightness of your being.  Which you can allow to be present in the lack of control.  

And then find the place in you which is still present, still in existence, still you.  And then you can settle into this place, and know that the other was the illusion. 

And your deeper self has solidity which is not permeable.  

And then see.  Reflect to yourself when it’s fear that you are feeling, and therefore the control comes out.  But that its basis is fear. 

And then love yourself in that fearfulness.  Hold yourself as if you could hold yourself as a child.  

And reassure that child that now they/you are safe from your fears because you can take care of yourself.  

Some more questions?

—I’m in transition for awhile, and I’m feeling lost.   And wondering if you can give me insight into where I need to go.  If in fact I do need to find a different physical location?— 

Part of what you are experiencing is the discomfort of change.  

And as you are sensitive to the flow of energies in the world around you as well as in your own world.  You will be, no matter where you are living, confronted with the discomfort of shifting energies. 

And so, once again, the solution is to connect more deeply to your own deeper self.  Your self on a soul’s level.  

And I know this is not always so easy to do.  

But find those moments of comfort when you can perhaps sit in the sun.  And receive the fullness of that moment.   And find the resources available to you in that moment.   

Soften your tissue of your body.  And fully receive the resources that are available in this moment. 

So you are training yourself to overcome discomfort with uncertainty.  Fear of being lost.  

And you’re laying and expanding the ground of your being with solidity. 

In that you in this moment, including in the moments when you feel sorrow.  And you feel confusion.  And you feel alone.  

Find the resources for feeding yourself in that moment.  So that those very things do not keep you from inviting the very sustenance which you need.  

Does this make sense to you?

—Yes.—

Alright, know that if you feel points of discomfort.  Which you feel you cannot bear alone.  Then do not.  

And choose support systems which will hold you in those moments.  

Because all of us who have been human have been in this position. 

And what it teaches us is the very sweetness.  Asking for help and receiving it.  

And it is only so that we truly can give help to others.  For if we have not experienced this ourselves, we are only acting a part, a part as in a role. 

And your genuineness of vulnerability.  And the transformation that is only possible in vulnerability.  Is then something which you carry.  

And which strengthens your being, your Self, your authenticity.  

And this might apply to others as well in the group.

—Mistress Peony—

Yes.

—I believe I’ve uncovered the root cause of why I have been holding difficulty in accepting Master Chang as my teacher.  It goes way back, and is all tangled up with being Catholic.          

On a mental level I can comprehend that at a point all of the teachings come together.  And that the root teaching of Christ, and the root teaching of Master Chang, have the same root.            

But on an emotional level the childhood block is very strong,  And I have much trouble.      

I think I have only just now finally identified what’s been keeping me from really accepting him as my teacher.      

And if you have any suggestions or advice, I would very much appreciate it?—

Feel the energy which is coming to you now.  Who am I?

—Yes, sir.—

This aspect of you is childlike, received some goodness in some other experiences.  Where this was important for you to have this goodness.  

And you betray no one.  Not the child, not the giver of goodness, not the system of goodness.  By allowing this child to grow up.

And it is good that you have struggled with this.  And found this.  

This is something that would have been difficult for anyone who knows you to have found for you.

And that child now is ready for maturation.  

And we hold you in our esteem for all the work you have done and accomplished.  All the knowing and wisdom you have gained.  And that you continue is most appropriate.

The column which reaches from your core.  And the depth of your history of many lives.  Reaches yet above you quite far.  

Your potential is rich.  And we embrace you in this path which you keep returning to.

Now, I have interrupted.  And I shall leave you.

—Thank you.—

My uncle is slightly heavy energy.

Now, we are beginning to tire, all of us.  So I wish to leave you with a blessing.  

For those of you who have questions which were not spoken.  Ask for our presence in your sleep.  Any of those who have come, or those who are lovingly connected to you.  

And do this tonight and for many nights.  And ask that your questions be answered.  Ask that your needs be met.

Take the trouble to formulate your question, a simple one, in a phrase.  Not too complex because then you’ve not yet defined your question.  

Put your hands on your heart or on your belly chakra.  

Sink back into the energy field which is around you now.  Your field has this memory.

Invite your own transformation.  

You are not to be sad.  You are not to feel alone.  

You are to feel creative.  You are to feel blessed and loved.  

Draw this into your being.  Learn to suckle upon it.  

Allow your aura, your auric field, to be like a womb.  

Invite our tender but very powerful love to surround you.

(Recording ended)