Thoth & Mistress Peony: Core Strengthening

September 21st, 2002

Core Strengthening Transcript

Good evening.  I am Thoth.  Now, the questions which you have placed in this circle, the questions which are full of confusion, are in accordance with the times which you are in.

There are the falling apart, the tearing asunder of patterns which estrange human beings from one another, and from the Earth upon which you live.  Your culture has developed, and it is a dominant culture in many visible respects.  Not in other respects of the world.

And other peoples have not aligned themselves with the dominant culture.  And they have been powerless once.  And they have gone about holding onto their own beliefs about the nature of reality and the nature of the universe.  And they are more guided by Spirit.

Not to imply that they are perfect and you are not.  But more to illustrate that you are not alone.  That there is some degree of human grass roots of - organization is the wrong word, because it is more based on energetic position.  And the more dominant this energy is in the world, then the more ease there will be in this transition.

Because the world which you seek, which those of you who wish to gather here.  Those who choose to explore their healing process.  Those who wish to live in a world where there is more love.  You are not alone.  But you are not connected in a tangible way as yet to these other people who have held the belief and the promise of a deeper knowing.

Now, the forces which are ascending, it’s called the patriarchy by some.  And it is involving also the celestial bodies, and some dominance therein the celestial bodies.  And this is an era which is coming to an end.  And the process is painful and even dangerous.

However, more of you are being called to the work of the Soul, and the guidance by Spirit, that you will be in place when more people turn around and say, “There needs to be something better in my life.  There needs to be something truer.  What can it be?”

And many of you are doing your own clearing.  Doing your own spiritual practices.  And developing tangible networks between you to sustain yourselves.  So you will then be able to be of use, and be of help to others as they begin to wake up to the  deeper nature of truth.  And the deeper, sweeter potential of existence.

And we have said before that the force of - the patriarchy is a small word for what the force behind it is, or influencing it is.  And a number of you have had very personal experiences with darkness, and with the potential depth of darkness.  And your bright smiles are a testament to your Sacred light, and the power of the Sacred light.

So we have said this before.  But we will continue to teach the same thing because it will make more and more sense to you as you see events unfolding.  And as you see that as you carry your light more clearly, and you dare to drop your sorrows.  You dare to drop your self-doubts.  Then you will see that the impact of your light may be subtle to many, but it will grow.  And more and more people will see the subtleness of your light, and will come to it for nurturance, for information, for hope.

Now, do you have questions for me about what I have said, or about the nature of this battle, this cataclysmic opportunity?

— Thoth, I would ask about energy. Is there a fundamental energy where we come together?  Is that a possible thing?—

What do you mean by come together? 

— Is there some energy level at which we all exist?  We have very different spiritual approaches and practices throughout the world, but is there some base chord where we all are?— 

Absolutely.  And in the core of your being is the Sacred.  And this is the same Sacred that is in the core of each life, that is in the core of all beings. 

We know that some people have turned their full selves away from this core, and these people may not be salvageable.  But in general, in terms of more general human beings, the consciousness is there. 

And the more that core is strong, the more you will recognize one another.  You may be of different faiths, you may be of different beliefs, but the core, the strength of the core will be increasingly visible, person to person, heart to heart. 

If you go now to a country in the latin, southern hemisphere continent.  You could walk into a village if you have a way to introduce yourself to the people.  Those of you with your sweet hearts will be recognized quite readily by those people who are living more in accordance with the quality of their heart. 

Let me see, and people’s perceptual skills, all of your perceptual skills, it is available to you for them to grow.  So that you can become sensing others with more full intelligence of your whole self. 

So, it’s beyond your mind assessing someone.  It’s beyond even your intuition.  Your intuition rolls in and your sense of being able to more consciously read someone’s aura.  Not with consciousness, but with knowing and feeling content with your knowing.  Becoming surer with your knowing. 

And then also the openness of your own heart.  To see this person in front of you, and open and receive them with an open heart.  And thereby you pass on the tribe of the open hearted.  You may toy with this as your tribal name. 

— It seems like the shadow is really up and exposed, and showing up in different places around the world.  And I guess I’m wondering, is it going to get a lot darker, because it feels pretty dark now?— 

It will. It is not resolved.  It is in spasm.  And it is not given up yet.  And in its death throws it will assert its will strongly.  And great changes will occur. 

And one topic you have spoken of is going through changes, is not being able to control what happens to you.  And to look at how used to controlling you are, look at that expectation. 

And so, partly what this is is the pulling away of things from you.  Clarifying who you are without certain things, without certain people, without certain expectations of yourself.  And then, who are you? 

You are being stripped down to your more essential selves.  So that you can live more lightly, more clearly yourself.  And so, you have this practice in gracefully receiving being out of control.  Because you will have more opportunities to learn that. 

So the more quickly you embrace it, perhaps the easier things will be for you.  And each of you can be teachers to others.  And this is simply a truth which we encourage you to accept. 

Was this full enough for you?  Does this answer enough? 

— Just one more little piece. Have the things been exposed that we are facing, or are there more big surprises?— 

Well, there will be occurrences which you will not anticipate.  Perhaps more examples of an emergence of pestilence.  So there will be eruptions like this. 

And you will become better at seeing them for what they are.  And not getting yourself drawn in, so that you are not so upset by what you hear.  You can say, “Ah, that is an eruption of putrid energy.”  And then don’t feel that energy is weighing on you, or can define your life.  It wants to.  It seeks to. 

So, you will become better at managing the opposition which comes, so that you are not so influenced by it.  It takes a great deal of faith.  And each time return to love in your heart. 

Each time you value connection between yourself and the world, yourself and another.  This is faith building.  And you can work on your faith building everyday that you live, because then you will be strong, and your strength will bear fruit. 

— Thoth, in my experiences with darkness, in the last few years of my healing I found that the more focus I put on the little joyful things and expanding in that, rather than spending my energy so wrapped up in the sorrow, the farther I came out of the depths of that really dark energy that I grew up with. 

And I wonder if at this time, if we could focus more on anything that brings joy or beauty to us, if that wouldn’t help bring a consciousness available to others that would lighten up the woes of this heaviness?  Instead of getting into this heavy soap opera, and you become that energy, and that exacerbates it. 

And I’m wondering if we work towards that whatever joyful or beauty, and we can bring that out, and focus on that and energizing that.  That could be of impact at this time?— 

You have been extraordinarily courageous.  You have faced darkness in the most personal aspects of your life on this plane.  And your courage has been magnificent.  So continue. 

Now, in case you may be visited yet further this evening, I wish to give you my blessing.  I connect to the solar constellations, the celestial realm of the planets in the universe.  And I draw from them into this circle to be received by each one of you to the degree which you are willing and currently able strength.  I draw this energy into the circle which surrounds you, the Sacred Space, like a womb.  

And it is for you to absorb that strength into your bodies in the place you most see appropriate.  Do not spend time in questioning.  Let your body tell you.  You may feel it like a solidity, a warmth.  It may enter your body in one place, and move to others.

We invite you to have expectations of yourself which are of significance.  Not related to identity ego.  Something much more subtle and profound.  Allow this strength to permeate your body and your auric field.  And if you find places which are too small for it.  Embrace this spot and invite healing.  And allow it to receive this strength whenever it is ready.

And may this continue to settle into you in your sleep this night laying beneath the stars, and knowing that you are connected with kindred energies from very far away.  Be strengthened.  And may this bring you purpose.  And yet, may your paths be one of pleasant surprises.  Goodnight.

Good evening.  I am shifting the energies quite a bit.  Now, I believe you have addressed some very important questions.  And I wonder if there are any of you who have questions which are of a more personal nature?

—Any practical insights on how to embrace being out of control?— 

The predominant culture is geared towards controlling.  It’s oriented to controlling.  So it’s not only within you, but you are trained to try to exert this.  And there is great fear in not being deeply and lovingly connected to the world around you, and so the control is the more necessary.  But this is an illusion. 

So I would say to bring consciousness to your small moments of control and lack of control.  And play with this.  And make jokes with yourself about this.  And say, “Ah, here I’m not in control again.” 

And then see if there is greater lightness of your being, which you can allow to be present in the lack of control.  And then find the place in you which is still present, still in existence, still you.  And then you can settle into this place, and know that the other was the illusion. 

Your deeper self has solidity which is not permeable.  And then see.  Reflect to yourself when it’s fear that you are feeling, and therefore the control comes out, but that its basis is fear. 

And then love yourself in that fearfulness.  Hold yourself as if you could hold yourself as a child.  And reassure that child that now you are safe from your fears because you can take care of yourself.  Does this help you?

—Yes.—

Some more questions?

—I’m in transition for awhile, and I’m feeling lost. And I’m wondering if you can give me insight into where I need to go, if in fact I do need to find a different physical location?— 

Part of what you are experiencing is the discomfort of change.  And as you are sensitive to the flow of energies in the world around you as well as in your own world, you will be, no matter where you are living, confronted with the discomfort of shifting energies. 

So once again, the solution is to connect more deeply to your own deeper self, your self on a soul level.  And I know this is not always so easy to do.  But find these moments of comfort where you can perhaps sit in the sun, and receive the fullness of that moment. 

And find the resources available to you in that moment.  If you sit with a friend, fully receive the resources that are available to you in that moment.  In this instance, soften your tissue of your body and fully receive the resources that are available in this moment. 

So you are training yourself to overcome discomfort with uncertainty, fear of being lost.  And you’re laying and expanding the ground of your being with solidity in that. 

You in this moment, including the moments when you feel sorrow and you feel confusion and you feel alone.  Find the resources for feeding yourself in that moment, so that those very things do not keep you from inviting the very sustenance which you need.  Does this make sense to you?

—Yes.—

Alright, know that if you feel points of discomfort which you feel you cannot bear alone, then do not.  And choose support systems which will hold you in those moments when you feel you alone cannot manage.  Because all of us who have been human have been in this position. 

And what it teaches us is the very sweetness of asking for help and receiving it. And it is only so that we truly can give help to others.  For if we have not experienced this ourselves, we’re only acting a part, a part as in a role. 

And your genuineness of vulnerability, and the transformation that is only possible in vulnerability is then something which you carry.  And which strengthens your being, your Self, your authenticity.  And this might apply to others as well.

Now, we are beginning to tire, all of us, so I wish to leave you with a blessing.  For those of you who have questions which were not spoken, ask for our presence in your sleep.  Any of those who have come or those who are lovingly connected to you.  And do this tonight and for many nights.  And ask that your questions be answered.  Ask that your needs be met.

Take the trouble to formulate your question, a simple one, in a phrase.  Not too complex because then you’ve not yet defined your question.  Put your hands on your heart or on your belly chakra.  Feel back into the energy field which is around you now.  Your field has this memory.

Invite your own transformation.  You are not to be sad.  You are not to feel alone.  You are to feel creative.  You are to feel blessed and loved.  Draw this into your field.  Learn to suckle upon it.  Allow your aura, your auric field, to be like a womb.  Invite our tender but very powerful love to surround you.