Thoth & Mistress Peony: Challenges

May 10th, 2003

Challenges Transcript

—Settle into yourselves.  Be inwardly connected, so you are showing up as fully as you are able.

I call us into Sacred Space.  I ask for the blessings and the guardianship of the Grandmothers and the Grandfathers of the Sacred Directions.  I ask for the presence of Mother Earth and Father Sky.  I ask for the presence of the Sacred elements, and all the beings who would be interested in informing us in the healing of those present, in the expanding awareness and knowledge of those who are present.

I give thanks for the presence of the animal realm who are serving as guardians, of the angelic realm who served to lighten the space around us, of the star nation who connects us to ancient wisdom and mystery, and to the Earth’s plant realm which continually feeds us with their energy and their knowing.

I ask that each person ground yourself to the Earth, and draw her energy up freely into you.  So that you have a source of direct energy that is strong and clear and benevolent.  Let our abundance flow through us, filling us, staying within us in abundance, and flowing out to fill the Sacred Space.

It is from this place of self-responsibility that we each must stand in order to ask and receive in our best way.  So be it.—

Good Evening.  There is a great deal of grief among you, if not personal for yourselves, then for others that you know.  And it’s an intensified time where difficulties are emerging.  And this has happened a great deal in the recent time, and all throughout history, but much more heightened since 9-11.  And it is incongruent now because springtime is here, and it is not expected by you.  It is in conflict with what you wish to be, what is frequently true for you in springtime. 

Now, this is a time where you will need to have faith to rely on, to fall back on.  Where you will need the love of others to resuscitate you when you feel sorrow, when you feel defeat.  And then, you in turn will play that role for someone else. 

But it’s also a time about your choices.  And, your choices in times where things are easy, are easier to make.  And, your choices when things are difficult are more challenging, and yet, they shape the character immensely.  Now, I can understand that many of you will not care about the character development.  Some of you will reject this notion, and feel that comfort is more your choice.  Then this will be so. 

And, each path has its rewards, and each path has its challenges or limitations.  So, on the one hand, some of you will choose the path of challenges, and some of you will choose the path of limitation.  These are harsh words, in a sense, and yet, this is true.  So, I share this with you.  

You have choices.  And, each path has its costs. And the costs of greater consciousness are greater responsibility, and yet greater rewards.  And the path of less consciousness involves less intensity in each direction.  Less intensity of sorrow, less intensity of seeing the truth which sometimes is painful, but less intensity of the joys and fulfillments as well.  

So, you have choices.  And, self-responsibility is a chief one of these choices.  And perhaps, one of the hardest ones to receive, self-responsibility.  It is far easier to blame others.  It is far easier to blame your past.  It is far easier to not choose to clear the voices which are internal to you, which only you can clear from yourself. 

This does not mean that when I say, “only you”, that you must do it alone.  You mustn’t do it alone.  But there are places where only you can do for yourself.  No one can do for you.  The most intimate spaces of making choices. 

The heaviness you feel is not being imposed upon you.  The heaviness you feel is connected to your own energy fields, as well as the unfortunateness which you are concerned with.  So, it’s your choice to stay with this heaviness, or to seek to receive something different. 

Each of you makes a difference.  Each of you will make choices now, whether you sit in resistance, or whether you soften to the possibilities.  So connect yourselves to the Earth, and let yourselves be nourished.  And, now that I have spoken so directly with you, I will leave you with my blessing. 

Good Evening.  There is a need for truth and for strength, and for defining boundaries and limitations.  But I also think that your growth requires both the truth, and an energy which will perhaps help you make your choices, and beacon you in another manner in making your choices. 

So, I am relieved to see there’s already a shift in the energy field.  It came partly with me, and it came also in your response to me.  The heaviness which Thoth identified and spoke to was there before he came, and he wanted you to, in a sense, see what in moments you are up against.  And to stand there with you in the honesty of what it takes to be, at times, making your choices. 

Sometimes your choices are easy.  Sometimes the rewards are so clear, you can clearly make those choices.  And sometimes they are not, and you still have to choose. 

Each one of you are making movement in your life.  Some of you have felt satisfied with where you are.  And, many of you have expressed desire for resolution, for transformation, for something which will ease the place where you are.  

We have spoken to you many times of being part of a greater whole.  And, sometimes the energies of that whole become very intensified.  And even though you extoll to make choices, it is a paradox, because sometimes those choices are very difficult. 

In which case then you must still choose to hold to your faith in life.  Hold to your faith in goodness.  Hold to your faith in beauty which presents itself around you.  And, thereby, hold on like a thin thread which will pull you through dark waters.  

And, there is darkness in the world right now.  Very intense times of shift, very intense energies.  And, some of this is what you are feeling. 

Do not become in the habit of sorrow and pain.  It is habit forming.  You can choose to have a habit of sorrow and pain.  You will have it.  It does take courage to choose otherwise, but you can have that too.  

It may mean asking for help.  It may mean changing your view of yourself more than changing yourself, because your True Self is capable. 

Sorrow is palpable tonight.  So, what do we do when it is so palpable?  Put your hands on your heart and belly. 

First, let us draw from the Sacred elements.  See the ocean, or if you prefer a river or a lake.  Bring that energy into you.  Let it flow deep into your system.  Let it collect and wash out what obscures your view, your ability to see clearly. 

Let it teach you that each moment reality can be different.  Each moment reality can change.  You let it flow, and do not hold it, ongoing flow.  Sorrow is true, and the next moment it can be grace. 

Now, see sunlight which is on the water.  See creature of fire, and bring that most especially into your first chakra.  Let it expand your own fire there.  This is fire which informs you of power.  Let your own power grow. 

This is not a power to be feared.  This is a power which can be a gentle roar there to guide you, to sustain you.  This is your commitment to your life, this one life that you have at present.  To receive all from it that you can receive.  To burn away that which is not true to your being. 

Now, creature of air you will enjoy when you walk outside tonight and feel the freshness of the air.  But still breathe in that which you cannot see but which is real.  Let it help to clarify your system, to cleanse your blood, to change the ratio of heaviness vs lightness within you. 

Now, Earth and Earth creatures; let the sun shine upon a forest for you.  Sit under the trees, and let the light play with the air, play with the Earth manifest in tree form, in plant form.  Bring yourself to the Garden of Eden.  Be the pure child that you are. 

Allow yourself to be changed now in this moment.  And then in your next opportunity for challenge, perhaps you will think of how to change.  What to hold onto?  What to receive?  How to release the barriers which you have in your system, and believe to be true, but are not. 

In this wood, allow animal creatures to come near you who would like your companionship, your friendship.  Choose one creature to look into their eyes.  Receive their essence.  Receive their willingness to know you. 

Sorrow weighs you very heavily, and yet you will make more intelligent decisions from this point of lightness.  This is closer to your true self, where you will always make better decisions, better words for someone else, more honoring of your own heart, more knowing of your own feelings. 

Try to remove yourself from the drama of your life, so you can see more clearly.  Then you can carry energy which will be of help to yourself and others. 

When forces create heavy energy, to learn to lighten in the face of this heavy energy means you become very valiant.  You become a gentle warrior capable of self determination.  

Very challenging concepts for your era, where you see very little of this standing before you.  So, you are brave to even hear these words tonight, to come at this difficult time, and to elicit these thoughts. 

Each of you is attached to your own dramas, of course you are.  Each of you can learn to surrender that drama, so that you can be more happily yourself, and more of an example to others. 

My beloved ones, you are making choices in each moment.  May you remember to call upon the universe, and may the universe respond to you.  And I’ll tell you, if you call and it doesn’t respond, it is your drama keeping you from hearing it.  It is there. 

What is your choice?  To vanquish sorrow, or to live with its foot on your neck?  To vanquish fear with love, or to live in fear?  I know this is asking bravery of you.  But you have asked us for our input, and this is what we see as true. 

So tonight, with love in your heart, ask yourself when the little questions start to nibble at you, “Is this my drama?”  Go to your heart, and bring in more love.  Give love to others yes.  Give love to yourself everyday, as many times as you can think of it.  And may that grow day by day until it is constant. 

So, this is my blessing for you.  It is in the energy field that you sit in.  Nothing is stronger than love.  Receive our love, and know you are never alone.  Call upon the Sacredness in the universe.  It will attend you in myriad forms. 

Be with sweetness tonight.  When you fail, forgive yourself, and love yourself, and continue on your quest.  And so, you will heal yourself, and help to heal the world. Good night.