Mistress Peony: Vulnerability

February 19, 2004

Vulnerability Transcript

—I call us into Sacred Space. I ask for the guardianship and the blessings of the Grandmothers and the Grandfathers of the Sacred directions from all points of the Sacred wheel.  For the presence of Mother Earth and Father Sky.  

Into this Sacred Space I call in our friends from the plant and animal realms, the knowing and wisdom of the elements of life, and our Spirit guides.  We gather this night with many questions, and we sit with our uncertainty, and ask for your guidance.— 

Good Evening.  I am pleased to be with you this evening, and there is greater space.  When you sit with such a willingness to experience your own uncertainty, you create more space within yourselves. 

You have been trained all along in your upbringing and in your culture to always know, to always have the answers, the correct answers.  You are always tested.  You are always evaluated in this culture.  

And so, for a defense, you tried to be very smart.  You tried to meet the requirements which were upon you. 

And, some of you have been experiencing very personally, the truth that human beings are very tender.  

So, what you are doing when you sit with not knowing is to open yourself in a new way.  And it does not feel comfortable, because it makes you feel vulnerable.  And part of your training has been to not be vulnerable. 

You have shorn yourselves up in so many ways, to be strong, to be smart, to defend yourself in the ways that you are capable of doing.  And then this aspect which is true of this tender self, this vulnerable self, must go into hiding. 

So, part of the work that you are doing, and that you are experiencing fluidity about, is you are allowing this aspect of yourself to be.  

Because you know internally this is part of the truth of who you are.  But, it is challenging to live with that truth, as you are supposed to be having authority in some situations, having professional authority. 

Perhaps you are a parent, or a teacher, or a healer, or whatever it is.  And it is very difficult to hold this sense of the truth of your vulnerability at the same time as you function in the world, or trying to find your relationship to the external world. 

But, here we see you being true to what is.  And we see you opening to hold yourself, and the sweet vulnerable one who does not steel themselves with defenses.  

And those defenses, they helped to create a false you.  So, you are brave to be vulnerable.  You are brave to release the support systems to your ego identity, because they are not the truth. 

And, if you can make space for the truth of your vulnerability, and hold yourself in the same tender care as you would another.  

You would know how to do this for a friend.  And yet, your capacity to do this will grow exponentially when you can do it for yourself.  

Because here your motivation shall not be the rescuer, the wise one, the strong one.  But, your motivation will be truly the compassionate heart.  

Because it is only in feeling your own vulnerability, your own sweetness, holding this in love and acceptance, that the true heart of compassion can grow. 

So, in the midst of these moments, when we have seen you struggle with your identity, with your confidence, with your self-esteem.  We wish to applaud you, to support you, to honor you for this process which you are undergoing. 

Now, open your energy fields to that which you have called to be around you.  Allow the energies of Mother Earth to come into your body.  To settle into the spaces, the cells, the bones, the muscles, the tendons which she can build in strength. 

What is coming to you is true strength not false strength.  This requires you to surrender to a greater constellation of forces.  

As you have been accustomed to fighting for yourself and defending yourself, it is a different way of being. 

You each have the experience of receiving, and yet as you pursue your own evolution, your own transformation, we bring you greater experiences of surrender and receiving.  So whatever it is that you have known already, you can know it more greatly. 

So now, from Father Sky, you have called the universe, the star nation, the great complexity that surrounds the Earth, not just above.  And let some of these energies also fall into your energy field.  

How they will nurture you will be known in the future.  It is not a clear and simple thing, but some stars wish to place their energy, their brilliance in parts of your physical being, in parts of your energetic being.  So now, receive deeply. 

Be willing to receive the unknown given that you have called into Sacred Space, given that you have called on the Grandmothers and the Grandfathers of the Sacred realms to watch over you.  We would not ask you to be so vulnerable if it were not in this context. 

And this is a context which you may wish to call to you whenever it occurs that you may need it, or whenever you want to open your field for support and love and health.  

So call Sacred Space.  Because in the midst of learning to be comfortable with your vulnerability, you shall also learn about your true strength. 

And now, surrounding you, each one of you has Spirit helpers.  Let them draw close to you.  Let them give you a blessing very specific to you and your development.  

Experience receptivity.  Soften around where they are giving you input.  With your energy field say, “Yes.” 

Sometimes you become so identified with your state of sorrow that you close off from our ability to help.  So in this moment, deeply experience receiving the help which you will then have more capacity for in the future.  Receive. 

Now, into each of your chakras we are placing a nectar, a drop of this special nectar which is composed of primal light.  It is pure, clean, strong.  It is potential. 

Your energy field, the core of your being, recognizes this nectar as the drop of life which falls into each being as they become alive. 

We give you this to increase your potential to achieve a great alignment with your own soul.  It is like a second coming to life.  It is like a re- parenting.  

We do this now in the dark of the night, in the dark of the month, in a time where a number of you are experiencing challenge, uncertainty, as a support to your transformation. 

We hear that it is difficult for you to release yourself from the programming of your life experience.  And we know that you become discouraged by this at times. 

So, this is a gift to you of nourishment that you may continue on your path and in your process with this essence of Divine Life re-affirmed within you, essence of your own Divinity. 

We are all in a process of transformation and evolution, and we truly do not know the outcome.  So we recognize from you that you keep making these efforts.  And we wish to meet you with this gift which we can give. 

The night sky is drawing closer, so that its electrical field can also provide you with a blessing.  Breathe with your openness to this potential.  

Allow this fine vibration to enter into densities within your body, and within your emotional-energetic body.  We wish to lighten you. 

The darkness that you find yourselves in is not only your own.  We help you because of our love for you.  

And we wish you the strength to live with that love in your hearts.  Then you can live with that love on this Earth, where there is so much fear and so much worry, so much heaviness, so much sorrow. 

I know that some of you will be working on this heart chakra, and all of you will be whether you’ve studied it specifically or not.  This is the place of your true ability to live the Sacred in this world.  

This is the place for you to live the heart of compassion.  This is your goal, in small things, in small encounters with other human beings, animals, the Earth in all her forms, and in big struggles, and in big encounters as well. 

So, let your heart chakra relax.  Let it take up all of the space that it wishes to take up.  And let the outer layers provide the protection that you feel you need.  

But do not close your heart to protect yourselves. 

And I will tell you my dears, this is asking a great deal of you, but it is the purpose of life.  So, you are daring to embrace this very significant task.  

And your reward shall be love.  Love which you live, love which you give and you receive.  This requires sweetness and bravery.  This is a reward unto itself which is greater than anything else upon this Earth. 

Now, my brave ones, breathe deeply and absorb our love for you into your hearts.  Absorb our love for you into the chakras which require healing.  

Make a prayer, now, to yourself, regarding your willingness to embrace your own transformation.  Let that prayer echo throughout your energy field, and vibrate throughout. 

And now, sense the size of your field.  Sense your own integration.  Sense your potentiality.  Make a silent but resounding prayer of thanks.  

Come back to your own body.  Re-gather your parameters.  Give yourself a blessing. 

You have entered into relationship with the Great Mystery.  Since it is a mystery, there will be times when you will be confused.  There will be times when you experience uncertainty.  

And this is when you can choose to have faith.  This is when you can say, “I don’t know.  I don’t see the completion of this.  Spirit, I leave this to you.  May I be of service.” 

Practice your faith in your darkest moments.  They will last less long, and the realizations which come to you will be sweeter and greater and deeper than you can imagine.  

Because you are going into what you do not know, you cannot imagine the you that is becoming. 

And it is in this sweet bravery, this vulnerable bravery, where you stay open and receptive.  So that we can meet you and feed you.  

Open to faith.  Practice faith.  We surround you with our blessings.  You are learning to receive them. 

Your light will be a beacon to others.  We bless you with the nectar of the Sacred.  

Anyone who hears these words can allow it to drop into themselves.  The nectar of the Sacred is always available.  Receive it.  

You have our respect, our support, our love.  Good night.