Mistress Peony: Growth

April 19, 2004

Growth Transcript

—I call us into Sacred Space.  I ask for the guardianship and the blessings of the Grandmothers and the Grandfathers from all points around the Sacred Wheel.  We wish to have insight regarding each person’s place around the wheel. 

I give thanks for the presence of Mother Earth beneath us.  And bring our awareness, each one of us, to drawing from her energy and letting that fill your whole being.  And to the presence of Father Sky and the universe which surrounds and holds us, and of which we are a part. 

Into this Sacred Space I also invite our Spirit guides, so that we may have access to your direction.  Each one of us sits in our place of transition.  We sit within all that we know, and yet, we are aware of that which we don’t which sits at the edge of us.  We ask to have insight into this, and into the process of graceful growth. 

I ask that each person present be conscious of drawing energy from the Earth.  So that you are lighting up your own being.—

Good Evening.  This process of entering the body is easier tonight, so I will talk to you about your bodies.  

You are all living from your place of change.  And this is always experienced as challenging until you come to a level of comfort with your clearing yourself, and with your understanding of the process, and with your supporting yourself in the process.  

So that your intention may be to continue on a path of change and evolution.  And knowing that this is a continuous one, and that indeed there are some difficult times.  But they will decrease with time. 

It’s very important for you to watch the way you conceptualize your process, because you continue to project that conceptual framework onto yourself.  And so, it continues to be true.  

And you might have the experience of a great deal of repetition of this process.  So, if you would like to have some greater sense of fluidity and ease, you will want to observe yourself to see what your framework is, and what you continue to place on the path in front of you. 

So, if you feel that the path is difficult, you will find more difficulty.  If you find yourself faced with the unknown, and the unknown for you is unpleasant, then it has an imprint that you go into.  

And you don’t then have the choice or the space with which to have a different emotional reaction to what you’re experiencing. 

Reality is more fluid than you imagine it to be.  And you are more fluid than you imagine yourselves to be.  

And this is because of your training and the point in evolution where humanity is right now.  But to make yourselves more at ease, you are needing to go beyond where the multitudes are, and know, too, that you are not alone in this process.  

There are groups of people all over this city, all over this country, all over the world, who are working on their edges of evolution. 

And, we’ve spoken to you before about the web which you are a part of.  And therefore, your shift of vibration speaks into that web.  And then others shift of vibrations are also accessible to you.  

And yet, also influencing you are all the events of the world, and the vibration of all these other beings and people. 

And so, it is very understandable that you find yourselves moving forward and falling back, because there’s also a great weight in your world now, a very deepening of sorrows.  

And, I advise you not to watch the news too much, but you must know what’s going on.  So, you might determine a method to keep yourselves informed, and yet not be pulled into it too much.  

If you are not informed, there will be energies which are weighing on you, which you don’t know they exist, and you don’t know why it is. 

And if you watch some good information, a small measured amount, or reading, or watching, or listening, then you don’t even need to listen for long.  They give so much detail.  Some detail is good.  But, you need to know why there is heaviness.  

Also, you are all sensitive, so you will pick up this heaviness. 

Now, what I would like you to do is develop physical-energetic practices which can strengthen your bodies, and hence strengthen your emotional and physical energy bodies, and enable you to then withstand change in a more easy way.  

One aspect of this is come into your physical being now.  And learn to sensitize yourself to this glorious body which you have.  It is a marvel.  It is a Sacred body.  It is a creation of the cosmos, and is Sacred in the cosmos. 

Very complex, more complex even than those who study the anatomy, and know the intricacies of how the body works, which is very fascinating and very depth-full.  And yet, your science only has a rudimentary knowing of the complexity and potentiality of the body. 

Now, if you do some spiritual practices, they can have positive impact on your emotions.  This is something we’ve practiced together.  

And yet, if you do not also have physical practices to support the physical body, you will not have as much energy and clarity as would support your transformational process.  So, in your physical body, one aspect is to move everyday as much as you can.  

Another thing that you can do is to receive healing practices which impact the tissue of your body.  So that you are having support to move things out of your physical body.  

And not just moving it through Spirit or through energy.  This is the finest work.  It can change you.  But the issues are in the tissue of your body.  And so you can move it more quickly by deep tissue work. 

You must give yourself this gift to support your process, and then you will find these two things interacting with one another.  And you will have more choices about your state of being. 

So right now, what is your state of being?  As we begin our session this evening, what is your state of being?  

How much lightness is there in your body?  How much heaviness? 

Now, in this Sacred Space, because you have called in much support on the Spirit level, can you open up your energy field?  

Think of your chakras flowing.  Taking in.  Letting out.  Taking in.  Letting out. 

You don’t have to think too greatly about how it works. Simply know that there’s a flow.  And invite this flow to occur within you.  

Can you give up that which you identify as being you, but which is not serving you? 

As you let this flow occur, perhaps you can not judge what is being swept away.  And only allow it to be swept away if it does not serve you, if it does not serve your highest good. 

Now, as you are feeling your internal body again, is it lightening?  Is it becoming more soft, fluid, open?  

Are there pockets which are resisting?  Can you let this energy of your Divine loved ones influence you?  

You called in your Spirit guides.  They attend you.  It is not only me. 

How much can you surrender your boundaries?  How much can you surrender being in control of what you release?  

How much you need to wrestle with it before you release it?  How much you need to know its identity? 

In the core of your being, find this core element place, and allow it to be as wide as it wishes.  And allow it to open at the crown chakra wide.

And above your crown chakra, through this core of your being.  It runs perhaps into infinity. 

Choose to strengthen your alignment with your Higher Self, your own self.  Not even your Spirit guide, your Self, your Higher Self, the you that informs your life’s journey.  

The aspect of you which has come through past lifetimes with you.  The aspect of you which is consistent, which does not die.  Can you feel this strengthening as you focus on it? 

This is your finest guidance.  This is You.  This is not the small you.  This is the greater you. 

Begin to do this physical practice of coming to your core, lightening your physical body through movement, through touch, through your energy practices.  

And then come to your core and allow that influence to pour into your body, into your energy field.  It is in the core of you.  It is within you at all times. 

It can move more easily through your tissues if your tissues are clean, if there is space within your body, which is the opposite of density.  

And it can speak with you when you ask yourself a question, “Why is this so?  Why does this happen to me?” 

First align yourself with your greater self so it’s not your small mind, your third chakra, which is giving you the response.  Align yourself with your greater self.  Ask a question.  And then be silent. 

 And learn to receive the response, guidance from your self. 

There are times when it is difficult to know if it is your greater self or a guide who is speaking with you.  And do not let this concern you.  

What concerns you is that you are connecting to higher realms for input, and gradually you can distinguish between what is coming to you. 

Now, I speak to you about this because there are times when you understand something and you move ahead in your development.  

And, you know that the path of self-understanding and healing is a Sacred path.  A path of well-being for oneself, and for those whom you are influencing in the world. 

And yet, you also have your moments when you despair, when there is more confusion that answers.  

And I will say again, this is partly because of your impression about what it is to be alive, what your life is.  And so this comes to greet you.  And it is not connected to your greater capacity for change. 

Do you have some questions about this or about your process?

—So part of the confusion is my belief that I will have confusion. Is knowing that enough to change it?— 

Well, I would suggest to add these physical/energetic practices.  Because if you are trying alone to change yourself by will, by intention, by your own hard work, by understanding everything, understanding everything, understanding everything, you might be too worn out. 

So, I say you have not been taught to nourish yourselves, and the nourishing of yourself is simple practices.  

Everyone should start the day with a prayer to the Sun, prayer to the weather, prayer to what’s all around you.  Everyone should start the day with some physical, in your body, experience. 

In former times we didn’t need to focus so much on this because we were always using our bodies.  We worked and we walked, and we always were using our bodies.  

But now you must embrace this physical body.  And when you do move, know you are sending energy through your system when you move.  You are sending your beliefs through your system when you move.  

So, if you walk and you say, “I hate this.  I’m in a grumpy mood.”  Then this is what’s sent in your system.  This is what goes through the system. 

You must challenge yourself to really dare to surrender much of your own emotional content.  And the reason this is difficult is then, who are you without your emotional content?  

And this will be what you will find out. 

And you, without this emotional content, I have no doubt, will be charming to you.  I’m not worried about this.  

But it takes some courage because you are heavily identified with the smaller identity. 

Does anyone else have a question? 

—Mistress Peony, can you give me some insight into what determines what experiences are brought to the surface to be removed, from past lives and things like that?  

What determines why a particular event will come up to be dealt with at a particular time?— 

Well, you are clearing your physical body.  This is the prime agenda, because as you clear your physical body, your Spirit has more room to be in you.  

And you are clearing the weights of this lifetime and past lifetimes. 

It moves in a spiral, and therefore it’s sometimes difficult to track the clearing process.  It makes sense, and yet, it’s not a linear process.  

And this often throws people in their understanding.  And this also explains why you so often say to yourselves, “I’ve been here before.  I know this.  I forgot this again.” 

So, it’s because of the spiraling.  And you are multiple levels.  You are multiple layers.  So, any efforts to understand with linearity is not going to be accomplished.  Because there are spirals within spirals, and multiple spirals. 

And so, the most significant thing you can do is learn grace.  Physical movement is wonderful.  Movement where you do not do the same motions repetitively encourages your body to work with fluidity. 

And in the future, there will be much more of uniting physical process and spiritual process in healing. 

So your practices are very important.  Your core is growing.  And your core moves up in stretching out through you.  And in so doing, it bumps into threads which need clearing. 

And that thread then may have lines which are in the body.  It may have a physicality issue.  And that physicality issue may relate to a past life.  

Generally, all the major challenges of this life that you face do relate to a theme of past lives.  There’re themes. 

So, you might bump into something in your physicality, and it connects to this theme of your past life.  And then that comes up for healing.  

Then the next thing in your spiral that may be hit may be purely an emotional thing.  It may be a memory.  It may be from childhood. 

So, you can’t really track very well.  You can’t very well anticipate what is coming to you.  

But partly, this is about developing the wisdom to accept what is before you.  Because then it is about trusting your own process.  What is before you is what is before you.  

You must trust in this deeper process of your own.  Allowing the spirals to flow, and to trust in them requires courage.  

And one of the reasons growth can be uncomfortable and frustrating is because one is not trusting that flow.  And one is hesitant about opening. 

And this applies to everyone.  

So, the more supports you have to put yourself in the flow, or to help you clear when you are in places of discomfort, the more faith you will develop in the process.  And the more you will be capable of surrendering to the process. 

And if you know that the process is guided by your Higher Self, this will be easier.  

And if you have a tangible sensation of your core being.  You might simply feel it as a shaft of light, and you align that out your crown chakra.  Then this process may become easier. 

And we know it is an experience which many of you, if not all of you, have of clearing something, and feeling more like you are at home in yourself.  And you hold that space, and then other things emerge. 

And it can be frustrating because you say, “Oh, why haven’t I arrived?  Why isn’t it steady?”  

And it will be steady when it’s steady.  And it will become more that.  You hold your steadiness for longer periods.  And that grace will accompany you in your daily life in greater and greater capacity. 

And when you feel something stirring, listen to the voice that says, “Oh no, not again.”  

And say to that voice, “Oh no, I’m reprogramming you.  Yes, again.  Yes, again.  And I will support myself to do this.  I will embrace my transformation with support, with self-love, with this connection with my Higher Self, and my guidance.” 

If you can, when you need to rest, lie down and bring yourself into a state of asking guidance to be with you, of connecting with your core being, and asking your Higher Self to guide your sleep, or guide your rest.  And then surrender yourself to this process. 

Your culture tells you, this time in history tells almost all cultures, that you must accomplish everything through your own self guidance, your leadership of your will.  

This is very detrimental and it makes you strong headed, yes?  

—Yes.—  

Yes.  And what we ask of you now, feel your energy field again.  Now that we’ve spoken for this time together. 

Feel it, and see if your edges are softened.  See if you’re clear about where your body ends, or if it’s a little more nebulous.  

Are you wider?  Are you your energy field instead of your skin, your body? 

Can you now receive love from your guidance who sits behind you?  

Let that energy penetrate, and go sit in the place in you where you need it most.  And release anything that you feel needs releasing.  

In this Sacred Space it will be carried away and utilized for the greater good. 

Allow yourself this lightening.  Allow yourself this non-effort.  Allow your heart to soften, your heart chakra to open.  

Allow your Spirit guides to place loving energy into whichever of your chakras, or your organs, which are appropriate just for you.  Perhaps it is the cells of your body.  Simply receive. 

Allow your breath to move through your entire body.  Allow your core to permeate your body as much as it wishes to.  Perhaps it wishes to hold your body within it, instead of it within your body. 

Let the light of this universal chi fill you from within.  Allow the boundaries which you consider to be you to dissolve.  Is your body larger?  Is your energy field larger? 

How big can you be?  How light as opposed to dense can you be?  

Honor yourself, please, for the process of transformation.  For choosing it.  

And now, tonight, commit yourself to some new tricks to make the process easier for yourself. 

Experiencing your body now, your energy field now in a different way is a trick.  A very good one, because some part of you will remember this and say, “I like that feeling better.” 

And some part of you now will say, “Oh, I’m feeling so dense.  This is a signal to me, my density, my lack of ability to feel fluid in my process, is a signal to me that I must retrain my energy field.  This is a moment to retrain my energy field.” 

Go out and take deep breaths of air.  

Find a glass of water.  Give it a blessing, and then drink it.  

Call a friend to go for a walk.  

Go outside and dig in the Earth.  

Call a healer to work on your body.  

Choices, choices.  Rest with Spirit surrounding you.  

We do not wish for you to suffer.  It is not in our control.  We are here to help and support you.  We are not in control. 

Please feel surrounded by the love and support of all that you have called into your Sacred Space.  

Mother Earth beneath, Father Sky, the stars, the planets, the Grandmothers and Grandfathers of all the ages of this lifetime of human beings, those in Spirit manifestation, archetypes, your guidance. 

Come and drink from this well.  Choose to receive this support.  Bring it in myriad ways into your everyday lives. 

And know that every change that you achieve influences all else. 

Don’t accept feeling stuck.  Surrender to your own higher guidance.  Surrender to your own transformation.  

This is the greatest thing which you can do.  With all our love I say goodnight.